Did I miss the meeting? Or was there a book I was supposed to read? There must be some explanation as to why I do not feel I have the knowledge and experience I expected to have at this point in my life. I am nearing 20 years old (which is scary) and I do not have the stories, the wisdom, and whatever else goes along with being nearly 20 (which is even scarier). Remember when you were a freshman in high school and you looked at the superior race, also known as 'seniors', and thought how wonderful it would be one day when you could walk down the halls with the assurity and aloofness that was handed out the first day of senior year, along with locker combinations and class schedules? Fast forward to 4 years later. Remember when you were a senior and you looked at the superior race, also known as 'college kids', and thought how wonderful it would be one day when you could walk through your college campus with the individuality and independance waiting for you among the packets of papers handed to you after you give your parents the last hug good-bye? Fast forward to 4 years later. Wait...I can't go that far yet. I'm merely at the point where I realize that the feeling of superiority and knowledge is always one step ahead.

So instead of give you some great insight...I'll talk about cheesy college romance!!! Well, why not...it's an intricate and interesting thing to watch. For the most part it is easy to see that:
1) superficiality is key
2) guys only want sex
3) girls only want...um...I'm still trying to figure this one out
Sure this is not always the case. It's definitely not the case in my relationship with Sarah, and I know I'm not special enough to be alone in having a meaningful relationship (sad but true). But it is often true. There is a guy, whom we will call Bob, in one of my classes...we will call him Bob not for the sake of hiding his identity and saving his dignity...but because I'm terrible with names and can't remember his. He met this girl, whom we will call Annie...because that's her name. I watched the progression because I'm a people watcher. I saw him go from who he really is to what he is pretending to be now:
1) no longer swearing...because Annie doesn't like swearing
2) talking about God...because Annie likes God
3) hanging out solely with her...even though he has two very close friends in the class
4) 'protecting' her interests, like keeping people who smoke far away from her...when before he couldn't care less
And in all of this...it is painfully obvious to see that this is not who he really is. It is painfully obvious to see that he is merely acting like this because he wants her. It is painfully obvious to see that it's difficult for him to be something he is not. It is painfully...well...painful.

Like I said...this is amusing.

Outside of watching this 'relationship' happen before my eyes, I spent the rest of class listening in to other's conversations. Behind me, a group of guys were deciding who would be in their final cinematography project...a porno. One of the students had turned in storyboards for our latest assignment which consisted of a crudely drawn man and crudely drawn woman partaking in crude sexual acts. The teacher loved it.